I knnow the feeling Soritan.
Years ago when I was younger, my father was made redundant from his job of 26 years. He had started at the company of the age of 16, did his apprenticeship. When he tried to get other jobs, everyone wanted degrees - what he had meant jack. so after a year of no work, he went back to uni.
for 5 years, we scrimped by every year, just. My Christmas was a bar of chocolate and a book maybe a film and a couple of other nik naks.
My friends boasted 4 times as much for their birthdays, let alone christmas.
a number of years later, my parents became a little better off when some policies came to an end, and treated us for our understanding of the breadline we had for so long.
All i can say is be greatfull for all that you get and be proud of it. No matter how big or small, its all wonderful gifts, things you never had before you got them.