i know what you mean :L
i did see her again, and scars on her wrists :L
at that point words were found, my mind is extremely derpy, unable to work when talked to casually (albiet by a very hot girl XD) and able to work just fine when triggered by sorrow
DERPY MIND
i'm just generally derpy and awkward untill you get to know me lol
Uhh slit wrists or someone beat her?
There are few moments when I do feel awkward talking to people casually. Usually, when it's about something I hate, or when I have other things on my mind (like I just forgot something and my anxiety kicks in, and makes me start thinking back at that while trying to focus on the current convo). Or even worse, sometimes I say something, only to realize later on how wrong or awkward it sounded. And I didn't even mean stuff to sound that awkward either.
I'll give an example in which I almost got a hit on the head by my mother...
She told me to bring her a flower vase so she could put some fake flowers in it. There were 2 vases, one near me, filled with some stuff, another somewhere further, also filled with stuff. I picked the one near me, and mom proceeds to go wacko on me and say that "In life, you don't get everything under your nose." (well, it's a Romanian saying that you don't get served, you have to work for stuff, but it didn't fit much in that case). In other words, she wanted that other vase, but both were the same model, same size so why would it matter?
So I decided to open my mouth... What came out was "If someone gives you something under the nose, wouldn't you take it?"
Cue mother saying I am not her daughter anymore, and that she'd crack the vase on my head, and kept telling all her relatives that I was mocking her.
Man, she has a dirty mind...