It's always the people who smile the most who are hurting...
I've noticed those one thing that makes me the happiest is when I make someone laugh or smile...
Even on here, someone laughs at something I said, and it makes me get a big smile. Or someone reacts with the "love" emoji... I also smile. And that's because I enjoy it when I can make someone else enjoy that moment in time.
I get extra mad in arguments or when someone takes offense to something I said because I hate hate hate when someone is upset with me... It doesn't make me feel good at all.
That's why you may see me make jokes a lot on here or whatever. Makes me feel good when others are having a good time and happy.
My parents say that I shouldn't joke around all the time which is true and I have gotten better... But they also don't understand how much of a therapy it is...
I feel the same as you
@JuiceBox52. There have been days I want to scream at the top of my lungs... But I don't and I hold it in.