ive seen things and felt things from a very young age and im used to it now but at times i have nearly s**t myself.
on one occasion i went home to visit my mum on xmas eve and left about 11.45pm whilst walking throught the town to go home i noticed that the clock in the square had just striked midnight and to my surprise it starting snowing very slightly, as this has never happened in my life i just stood there an enjoyed the moment of it just turning into xmas and it was snowing......WOW.
then i heard someone crying behind me and i turned to see a person sat on the ground wearing what looked like a large coat with a massive hood covering their head. i went over to them and bent down and said "are you ok, whats happened" but she didnt answer. i felt such a deep feeling inside that i wanted to start crying, so i then said " do you want me sit with you awhile" this time she replied "its too late".
I looked up at the night sky and said "but look its snowing" , "its xmas day and its snowing.....look" i turned towards her and she had gone. there was no way that she could of ran off without me knowing or hide anywhere as the square was a large square with only benches to sit on and i was only 3 foot away from her.
At that point i did start to cry as i felt so sorry for her and i had a deep feeling or urge to help her. but she had gone.
i had a best mate who was the best mate i had ever had and we were so close that we used to hug eachother when we met up for a chat, drink and usual catch up. buthe died of kidney failure 12 months ago, well to cut the story shortish, my mobile kept having missed calls on it and they were from him (this was before i knew he had died suddenly) so i phoned him back but there was no answer everytime, anyway i went to the pub that we both used to meet in and someone broke the news to me that he had died and it was his partner using his phone to call people to let them know the sad news. i tried phoning again to find out when the funeral was but still no answer.......eventually the following day i saw another friend who told me that the funeral was delayed for postmortem results and he would give me a call when he knew when it was....i continued to call my best mates partner and failed each time.
a few weeks past and someone came up and asked me why i wasnt at the funeral.....i was gutted and it tore my world apart, i loved my mate and never had to the chance to go to his funeral... i continued to call his mobile but it was disconnected eventually and no-one seemed to know where his ashes were placed (showed how much they really cared).
i was on holiday in tenerife to hopefully put closure and the past 12 months and relax, well one night i had a deep dream and i remember all of my dreams, in this one my best mate Paul, kept appearing in my dream but i could only see him at a distance, then i walked down a street and he suddenly came face to face with me from around a corner, he was wearing three quarter lenght combats, hiking boots and a large bag on his back, he looked great , nothing like he used to look before he died. i started to cry and told him that i loved him and missed him and i was sorry i wasnt at his funeral.....he lips didnt move but i heard him say " i love you to mate and dont worry about the funeral i know what happened" i said "where did they put you paul" with that he replied " nowhere important, whats more important is that im still around" and then pointing at his large bag and i heard him say "look ive been travelling" and smiled.
at that point i started to cry hard and my partner woke me up saying that i was crying im my sleep and i was trying to get out of bed (something i did on a regular basis.....sleep walking)
i woke up and went into the front room of the apartment and noticed the sun was coming up, then suddenly the curtain at the window that keep the heat out during the day, moved like a gust of wind had blown through, as if the window was open, but wasnt.
the most amazing thing happen at this point, i felt two arms go around me, one over my shoulder and one round my waist and i was being hugged, there was a lovely sweet smell and as the hug finished i saw Paul for a split moment in front of me....smiling....... i had the most fantastic feeling that i had never had before, and a sudden thought of "there is life beyond this". from that day till now i havent felt guilty for not being at the funeral and occasionally feel a slight hugging sensation...............i very rarely sleepwalk now as well.
i love you paul mate, god bless xxxxxx