Staying in my PJ's and not showering regularly - mainly doing water changes since my assistant cant be here (I'm in pain from that). I am a high risk case with "End-stage" COPD. I had H1N1 several years ago and I already had poor lung function but this took my lung function down to 20% (from 34%), if I get the flu again and lose another 20% I will be on the "dead list". I'll also be last in line for a respirator since my rate of survival is low. It doesn't feel good to be in this position. I'm just staying home and ordering my groceries online. Pretty depressed since it about kills me to do a water change (takes me 4 hours because I have to rest so often) I'm not a TV person because the news pisses me off so much. I just want this over with - whether I live or die. Luckily Kansas has had few cases compared to other states.