It's Self Harm Awareness Day...

[Man of fish]

I have read this post and a few months ago thought about self harming myself but I'm very glad I didn't.
Why do you want to leave?

 

[Dieses Madchen]

This is a great post, but definitely hit close to home for me. Thanks to medication and therapy I have been decent. It has been 8 years since my break.....6 months since my slip-up. I'm not proud of it, in fact I loathe myself at times for it. But, while many will try to hide the scars, mine are pretty much on display. Kind of like battle scars. It's a testament to what I go through, and what I battle. Despite how bad the scars look, many people do overlook the fact that I have been through stuff. No one questions them. Whether they don't notice or don't want to ask, I am not judged because of my past. I am accepted for who I am. But, if you know someone who is a self harmer, intervene! Help them! I may not have reached the point that I did had someone done that for me. The following song goes a lot deeper than self harm, but it is where self harm can lead us.

I Won't See You Tonight pt. 1

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

It's building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

http/www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uUJITSZ64c

 

[fluttermoth]

I'll be very, very sorry to see you leave, MBOU.

I hope things get better for you, whatever's going on. You know where we are if you need us.

And hugs to all the other self harmers; strange how it's turned out to be some of my very favourite people on here too...

 

[Dieses Madchen]

Flutter. I want you to know before i dissapear that I love you to bits for admitting it! Admitting to what your brain will perceive as a weakness because everyone else thinks so is is a huge bonus! A strength!

So far:

Myself
ColdCazzie
Fluttermoth

Who else is brave enough to defy what is considered right and wrong? No offense but to me. Tonight. It is really important that someone cares. Reply to the post. I dont care if you have self harmed or just thought about it because the step is so small.

As of 10pm UK I will be requesting to leave this forum through no fault of my own. There is no choice in this. And tonight... a year or so or not.. if anyone cares... tell me so.. because even i you read thispost... write "i have read this" and i will know you care but have no words like me. If you care... it means the world. If you have read this far... you care.. so say so... will make the world of difference to me!

I will be very sad to see you go. But know that I admire you. Not many people can lay all their cards on the table like you have done in this thread.

 

[MBOU]

Believe me. laid all my cards on the table. My employer saw it too. I wanted the people i cared about to see this thread and i will contact you. Im not leaving because i want to. But becausei dont feel safe any more.

Im so sorry

 

[Dieses Madchen]

Believe me. laid all my cards on the table. My employer saw it too. I wanted the people i cared about to see this thread and i will contact you. Im not leaving because i want to. But becausei dont feel safe any more.

Im so sorry

:hugs!!:

 

[fluttermoth]

Hey; don't feel bad!!!

You do whatever it is you need to do, for yourself.

If you need to leave, then leave; if you want to stay, stay.

I'm sorry you don't feel safe, that's a horrible feeling for anyone to have.

 

[Man of fish]

Well good luck with wherever your lifes journey may take you good luck

 

[ainsy]

Mbou if you are feeling that low please, please, please speak to someone. If you can't find someone then the samaritans will always lend an ear.

 

[Dieses Madchen]

We are all here for you MBOU Stay strong!

 

[Man of fish]

Yes do whatever you feel is right and I hope you stay well no matter where you are or what your doing, always follow your heart .

 

[MBOU]

Im safe. Please dont worry. I have my reasons to leave but i am always happy to speak to people. People here know how to get hold of me. If anyone really asks the right people... i am happy to speak to anyone who cares enough to ask.

I have my support else where. Its not a fish forum but if anyone elver feels low or has experienced abuse.. then the forum called Pandoras Aquariums is amazing.

 

[fishkeeper694]

Im 15 and ive been struggling with self harm for 4 years now x im always here for anybody if they ever wanna chat, i know im just a kid, but ill listen and understand and try to help x

 

[Dieses Madchen]

Im 15 and ive been struggling with self harm for 4 years now x im always here for anybody if they ever wanna chat, i know im just a kid, but ill listen and understand and try to help x

And you know you can turn to us I have been struggling since the age of 12 with depression and thoughts....im 28 now

 

[MBOU]

Im so unbearably proud of you all please know that.