Thanks for the encouragement Lu. I am doing exactly what you have said and sticking with what I have until I move, I had planned to anyway. The funny thing is that the Rams and angels have been my healthiest fish.
You are right in the soul searching department. I have been very high strung lately in life, and it has been translating everywhere. I am also a perfectionist and work at things until I excel, only this isn't crafts, or sports. This hobby has living beings and I take it much harder. I wouldn't have quit. I shouldn't have even thrown my tantrum today.
I get very frustrated with fishkeeping, so much of it is out of my control, mixed with a little bit of bad luck and too much ambition. I do have my plants
Even as I say that my THIRD order of Alternanthera reinecki has melted into nothingness. The difference is that fish are living things so I feel very badly when something happens to them.
I have been overly paranoid since I restarted these tanks, and I have been seeing obvious signs that something wasn't right with the cories. Becausee I knew I've been paranoid, I was trying to leave it alone.
I need to trust myself, be calm, and stop showing everyone what a nutter I am.
Thanks for being a friend here, even when you are calling me out {which I appreciate}
Copper is ordered and I'll get these guys healthy. I won't be adding more fish, which will give me a chance to just take care of these. Very understocked is the way to go!