Mona (Golden Retriever) died 6 weeks ago, she was 10 years old and soon to be 11
that week was the most surreal one, the day that it happend I couldn't believe it
She had surgery on saturday at 3pm because the vet was going to extirpate something that could become into cancer and wouldn't allow her to eat or swallow in the future. This was not bothering her at the current time and it was just a preventive measure so that it wouldn't become a problem in the future and so that she would live more years. Everything was supposed to be alright so we took her home, but later that night she started to feel really bad, she would come by the futton sofa I was so that I could check up on her and she stared at me like something was not right, the vet even came to my house around 4am. 2 hours later she started to feel better so the vet didn't took her with him, and since I was with her the whole time during surgery (lasted like 3 hours) I was really tired so I fell asleep around 9am on sunday, I then woke up at 11am because my mom called me and ask me how Golda was doing, so we went by her bed (almost right outside my bedroom) and the poor thing had already passsed away.
I still feel like hell because of those 2 hours that I overslept, in which there could have been something I could have done for her
call the vet or something, the worse thing is that she died alone.
She was the greatest dog I ever had and the sweetest one, I had her when I was like 13 years old, and she would let everyone to pet her and play with her, it came to one point in which I teach her something and she would "know" what I mean right away. She even understood the expression of my eyes without having to say a word. My family its sad about what happened but they don't really understand how I feel, it was my dog afterall.
I know most people would not cry over a dog for more than a day, but I still get sad when I have to tell people I that my dog died, I even cry when I think about her, or feel sad when I walk by a place were I used to take her our for a walk. I also used to run with her almost every morning, so I haven't been able to follow the same route that I used to run with her
This is the main reason why I started keeping fish, just so that I could think of something else when I'm at home because everything reminds me of her. I dont have a picture of her at my PC but if possible I will scan one or move one of the ones at my cellphone to my PC.