Carp4u..... I know, and I appreciate that your post was sincere and that it was a legitimate request for genuine friendship with no alternative motives and I also know that if anyone responded to your post with the same honesty and intent as you envisage...... that they will have a very dear friend in you,...... but.... unfortunately, (and you will agree),..... that the innitial reactions was an indication that the thread has potential to stimulate unwanted responses, which would ultimately have a negative impact on your (already) fragile state of mind...... I think it is in your best interest that your thread was removed and I am also going to lock this thread with a request to our members who wish to get to know you better (as a friend) to contact you via the pm system...... in that way, we know whoever contacts you will also be truthfull and serious to meet you.