Lost my Black Molly

[pandapops001]

I watched my black molly take his final breaths last night and it destroyed any idea i had of continuing with fishkeeping.

i had been treating him for velvet and slime, he looked so much better yesterday morning, was swimming around more actively, spending more time at the bottom and less at the top, but come the afternoon he had enlarged eyes, i've been checking my water regularly, 4 times yesterday. and doing the necessary water changes when needed. But he still died, and i just cant do it anymore, i'm looking for homes for the remainder of my fish as soon as the medication period is over,

I wanted to net him out to end it all, but my partner told me not to incase he was fine in the morning, but he died shortly after and it was awful, i've just buried him in the garden and i'm soo angry that the meds didnt work fast enough, or it doesnt say to raise the temperature of the tank on the instructions of the meds,

I couldnt stop crying last night (which you probably all think is stupid for an adult to do over a fish i only had for 2 weeks) but i'm doing it again now, and its so awful

Anyway none of the other fish seem to be affected, so after the seven days are up i'll be looking for new homes.

Just thought i'd let you all know

 

[Grim Reaper]

Nope i think its ok to cry if you really likeds it
i am sorry about ur loss

 

[rvm]

really sorry to hear about your loss, but don't give up. It seems like you have some other healthy fish, and this was just a once off??

 

[Guppylover]

...I so sorry for what happened...oh, please don't stop fishkeeping...just because of one death...I had this problem too of all my fish dying two times, but I didn't stop, even though I wanted to give up on it all. Please don't stop fishkeeping...

 

[Silly me]

uhm if I have to tell you all the bad times I had, you'll feel mush worse..

I had once confinced my younger brother to buy a 20gallon tank with about 10 small fancy goldfish, that all died with in three days, he also cried over every one that died, and I felt so bad that I could cry aswell.

If the tears in your eyes is any where close to the once I saw in my brothers eyes then I would hate to be to close to you..

The sadness was not fish that died but the feeling that all we did was not enough to save the fish, the helpfullness you feel when no matter what you do just doesnt work.
It not the end of the world for you, there is lots more fish that need you to save then.

 

[pandapops001]

But its so hard, i dont think i could go through it again. He was the first fish i picked out along with a dalmation molly and 2 platys, it was so awful, he was led on his back just breathing normally like the others but when he tried to swim up to the top, he just nosedived back down, head first into the gravel.

I think come the end he must of been going blind as i was sat up close to the glass and he didnt even attempt to move,

 

[Silly me]

what other fish do you still have in the tank

 

[pandapops001]

I kept saying perhaps if i did a 50% water change now (12.45am), perhaps if i added some more meds, perhaps if....

My partner fished him out and put him in a cup full of water, and i kept thinking all night, perhaps he's not dead, and kept checking.

I'm not really religious but i even asked god to let him pull through

I dont think i'm cut out for it, i didnt realise it would be this hard.

 

[pandapops001]

4 Mollys 2 silver, 1 black, and 1 dalmation (all female)
2 platys blue tint (both female)
2 swordtails 1 blue(male), 1 orange and white(female)
3 guppies 2 orange(female), 1 blue (male)
1 Corydora(not sure sex)

 

[Guppylover]

You can't give up that easily pandapops001, you don't want to know how many of my fish have died. With some of the deaths I didn't know what happened and what was the cause, even when they where alive dying I hope for the best doing regular water changes. I was so sad when they died but promised not to give up. When I started this hobby I told myself I would not give up if my fish died but try till I get a perfect tank where they will live happily.

 

[rvm]

At least when he died, he had someone who was prepared to look after him. Too many people get into fishkeeping for all the wrong reasons and don't care about the fish. If you stop keeping fish, then thats one less person who will do it responsibly!

 

[sunflower]

I really hope you don't give up.

It's good to know there's another keeper out there who will always do the best they can for their fish. I believe that you did the best you can and I believe you will be a success.

 

[boozybears]

Hi pandapop,

I'm sooo sorry to hear he didn't make it. I know exactly how you feel... I was devastated the first time I lost a fish and it hasn't really gotten easier since then.. But please, please, please don't give up! The joy these guys bring waayyy outweighs the sadder times. You've obviously been doing everything right... and working really hard to cycle your tank and take care of them properly. Sometimes, despite our best efforts it's just their time to go. I suggest that you don't make any descisions yet... give it a few more weeks and see how everyone is doing and then decide what the future of your tank is.

Good luck! We're all pulling for you!!
Val

ps- don't be embarassed about shedding a tear or two... i think we'd be lying if anyone said they've never done that !!!

 

[balloon molly]

i dont blame you for crying over a black molly.they are very social with things outside of the tank.
i too have lost a black molly todropsy i was soo upset but the rest of my mollies are okay.i just wanted to say u are not alone

 

[balloon molly]

i dont blame you for crying over a black molly.they are very social with things outside of the tank.
i too have lost a black molly to dropsy i was soo upset but the rest of my mollies are okay.i just wanted to say u are not alone