i failed

[GuppyBreeder180604]

I need to vent
I made a mistake that may be insignificant for you, but for me it is greater.
I was cutting the bad leaves of my echinodorus and I saw one of my assassin snails on one of those leaves but I did not pay attention, when I got to the plant where the snail was, I had already forgotten it was there so I cut the rotten leaves and continue with the pruning, then once finished I threw the cut leaves to my patio to a special corner for compost and listened to a CLANCK but I did not think much about it, it was not until I did my accounts and realized that I was missing 1 snail and it was when I connected the dots, I had thrown my snail into the yard, so before I decided to look and even removed all the decoration that I could and moved the plants, I disassembled the filter, etc. and I did not find my snail, I counted 3 times and I did not find my snail so I started looking for more than 1 hour, removing everything and even pulling the surrounding grass, everything with a flashlight because it was already night, my brother came to help me but not even between the 2 we found him, I even looked in m I mini pond because it is very close to the compost corner, but no matter how hard I look, I can't find it, I already gave up, I'm tired, stressed and in the middle of an anxiety attack, I failed my snail for a damn carelessness that I did not It would have happened if I wasn't such an idiot, why do I have animals if I can't even take care of them and end up sealing their death?
what's happening to me? why? why? why?
I failed as a caregiver
I'm a failure
i just needed to vent on my feelings, I can't even get the strength to tell my mother that i killed one of the snails that she bought me with so much love, I didn't even deserve such beautiful animals

 

[Fishmanic]

We feel your pain. You made a mistake. We all make mistakes at one time or other with our fish and tanks. But we chalk it up as a learning experience. The well known saying, "don't cry over spilt milk" is true here. You can't undo what has been done but you can learn from it.

Try not to beat yourself up over this or dwell on it. It happened and you can't do anything to go back in time and redo it. So try to pick yourself up and move on. Your mom will understand.

Give it a few days and at some point, go out and get another snail similar to what you had. It will help pick up your spirits a bit.

 

[Ch4rlie]

Sorry to hear this has happened.

It’s unfortunate but it happens to the best of us as it’s so easy to make these sorts of mistakes.

Don’t be too hard on yourself and learn for the next time to check the plant leaves for snails.

 

[Utar]

I can identify, because three years or so back in my tank I caused what I called, "The Great Dying". I lost over half my fish in two days. I was having a hard time with black beard algae in that tank. So being stupid, I pulled out all the plants as they where covered in it. Took all the ornaments out scrubbed and cleaned. Vacuumed the substrate several times. I then did the worse thing anyone can do, I changed out the big sponge in my Aqua Clear HOB, that got even stupider by rinsing the bio-media out in tap water. I was just so sick of that algae that I carried it way to far, the tank went through a mini-cycle.

So please don't let this bother you, many have done way worse.

 

[AilyNC]

Sorry for your loss. I threw a snail out because he didn't move for 2 days but now I think he was hibernating live & learn but go easy on yourself.

 

[mcordelia]

Sorry to hear that this happened. To some people, it may seem like a snail is insignificant, but to you, it was an important pet. It reminds me of when I had my "apple snail" (which it wasn't), and it escaped the tank and I found it on the floor with a cracked she'll from where it had fallen after it clammed up to prevent drying out. It was still alive and probably would have been fine of I would have put it back into the tank. Instead idiot, inexperienced me thought that I should fix it's shell with nail polish, and I killed my snail his name was Oskar.

It's been 15 years and I still feel bad for what I did.

I want to let you know that these things happen, no matter how good of a person you are, how careful, how diligent, etc. Find it in yourself to forgive yourself for what happened.

 

[CassCats]

Everyone makes mistakes, this hobby has a lot of room for mistakes. Don't be so hard on yourself, you didnt realize it, you didn't mean it to happen either.

 

[AbbeysDad]

I'm sorry for your loss.
"Stuff" happens! Fishkeeping has a learning curve and the knowledge often comes at a cost. We learn more from mistakes than success. You learn and take steps to not to repeat mistakes.

 

[corylover5]

I'm so sorry you lost your snail
It's not your fault though, it was just a mistake which happens very often in fish keeping. Like others have said, try not to beat yourself up about it. Again, so sorry for your loss

 

[Utar]

Ask any insurance company and they will tell you that without people making mistakes, they would be out of business.